I try...

But some days it’s really difficult. Every day I wake up to the hope of a new day and the promise that it brings. Promises of hope for healing and moving forward with my health and my life. I never know what the day will bring for me however and it’s not always good. Today was a good day and it came after a long weekend of feeling good with reduced pain levels and more strength in my muscles than I had the week before. On these kinds of days before I go to sleep I thank the Lord and my angels for blessing me with a good day. People suffering from chronic illness will understand this and also know how quickly it can change. My long weekend of feeling good came after over a week of feeling poorly with increased pain and weakness. I’m not as bad as I was a year ago but I’m very in tune with my physical body, how it feels on a day to day basis, and I’d had a rough week.

When going through a bad spell I like to remind myself that this too shall pass. I remember that I’m doing better than I was a year ago and that my ups and downs keep trending overall in an upward pattern. That doesn’t mean that the bad days are easier to deal with. On the contrary they are as difficult as ever but I try to find something positive in each day and when I can’t I give it over to God. I find it helps me to do so. I’m a firm believer in doing whatever it is that helps you through the tough times so that you can enjoy the good. If that involves cuddling with a beloved pet, mindful meditation or talking to a friend please do whatever it is that helps you.

I tend to focus on the positives for my own peace of mind but I’m here to say I have tough days too. I’ve found being optimistic helps me be happier overall but I still have ups and downs like most of us suffering from FQAD. I try everyday to be positive but sometimes it’s really hard. On those days I just hang in there, try to think of something good, and wait for it to pass. It’s like waiting for a storm to pass only this storm comes from within. Into each life a little rain must fall is something my mother has said to me and she’s right. But I think we all live for those beautiful sunny days. May there be sunshine and healing in your future.

This too shall pass.

~Betsy